Friday, December 30, 2011

Gift Focus

What one or two areas of my list would I like to focus on for the next 30 days?
I'm going to say losing weight/getting to the root of my compulsive eating and being nicer to my hubby.

When I have fully received what I want, I will really have more love.  More love for myself, more love for my husband, more love from my husband.  I love who I am.  It's really strange to me how I can love me as much as I do but then be scared enough to show off who I am.  I know that I am awesome.  I know that I am a healer. I know that I am a great listener.  The closer I get to living this, the more I harm myself physically.  The more scared I am, the more I eat.  The more I eat, the more guilty I feel and the further removed I feel from my own life.  Food is powerfully comforting and numbing for me.

I would really love to carve out some space in my bedroom for my yoga practice and meditation.  This is really something I would like to practice daily but feel that I need to do it in privacy and not out in the open of my living room.  I keep putting this off b/c to practice daily would be opening myself up to more learning and more introspection.  More dealing things that make me uncomfortable.  However, I am getting more comfortable with the uncomfortable.

I want to be more open to listening to my intuition and not silencing it.  I want to say nicer things to my hubby.  I want to notice how smoking hot he is.  I want to be smoking hot for him.

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