1. What do you want to acknowledge yourself for in regard to 2011?
I don't remember much from the beginning of the year but around April I shifted into self-care mode. I lost 30 lbs by eating well and going to the gym. I gained it all back at the end of the year once I stopped smoking July 30th. I started a yoga practice and I am in love with it.
What did you create? I created space for me. I am making sure to do something for myself every day whether it's just taking the time to read a book or practicing yoga. I created a yoga practice. I am slowly creating a new me.
What challenges did you face with courage and strength? I am still in the process of letting go of what does not serve me. I think it is incredibly courageous that I was part of a women's workshop for 8 weeks and I took the time to speak out about my life and myself and my feelings. I was incredibly vulnerable and that was hard.
What promises did you keep? I promised to give more and I did. I promised to be more kind and I was.
What brave choices did you make? The bravest choices have been to go to the women's workshop and to eventually work up to not allowing people to steal my energy when I desperately need it for me. I have learned to say no. I have learned that it's ok to want to stay home and be with myself. I'm so used to being an extrovert and being the center of attention that for me to choose to be alone is huge.
What are you proud of? I am proud of making my end of year bonus at work. I am proud that I have opened a new door to seeing who I am. I am proud that I have had that door open for a few months now and I'm not running away.
2. What is there to grieve about 2011?
What was disappointing? I was incredibly disappointed that I did not rappel down the Wachovia building. I hated not doing that but I did not lose the weight I wanted so I felt like it wasn't safe to do it.
What was scary? The scariest thing I did was tell my truth in the workshop. Opening myself up with such complete and raw honesty was eye opening and it was hard work.
What was hard? Learning that I am horrible at accepting compliments. I don't know how I didn't realize this but it has really hit me hard. It was also hard to speak my truth. It still is. I'm still not good at sharing myself with those around me.
What can you forgive yourself for? I don't know why forgiveness is so hard for me. I really need to forgive myself for the way I was in high school. I need to forgive all the anger I harbored. I need to forgive my fear of isolation then especially when I try purposefully to carve it out now. I need to forgive myself for being scared & acting accordingly.
3. What else do you need to say about the year to declare it complete?
The next step is to say out loud, “I declare 2011 complete!”
How do you feel? If you don’t feel quite right, there might be one more thing
to say… I declare 2011 complete. I still have some decluttering to do before the day's end but I feel very good about the completion of this year and the beginning of the new one.
4. The final step is to consider your primary focus for the year to come. What is your primary intention or theme for 2012?
This is the year of joy. It's my word of the year. I am going to do something that brings me joy every day. I'm also breaking down the months to focus on an aspect of joy. I'll be blogging the entire way b/c I really think that this is going to be a major year of transformation. Rarely have I been SO excited to start a new year.
Stand up and say it proud, “2012 is my year of JOY!!”
Worksheet taken from here.
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